Monday, 18 August 2008


This was from last year but we sang this one this year as well!

Healer - Hillsong

This is the video I was talking about 

This is the story behind the song:

Sunday, 17 August 2008

Take Two

I miss you soooo much!!!!!

So here is a run down of this week and you will see why I might need Kleenex permantly on my person!


Molto-stress day! Chris as per usual left a lot of things to the last minute which meant that he got wound up about stuff and I wasn't helping matters because I was tired and excited all at the same time!

We got to church and packed the bus and the last bits in the car so we were ready to go. The Gibb (Associate Pastor with Pastor Mow Mow) prayed over us like a commissioning
prayer about how we would learn things and comes back knowing things that we didn't know and stuff like that. We then got on the bus and in the car and headed off - I had to follow the bus as I had instructions but couldn't actually read them at the same time as driving We stopped for lunch at a Sainsbury's somewhere before Swindon. I know that because it was just about 10 minutes before we ended up on one of the worst roundabouts in the UK. It's called The Magic Roundabout.

(Things had been tense up to this point as Chris kept putting the phone down on me or completely ignoring the calls - I was in the car on my own, Radio 1 was having like a dance day and played dance music - and because of Chris's most recent clear out of the car I had one CD in the front and the rest were in the back of the car somewhere I couldn't reach on my own.) I was ready to leave Sainsbury's and I followed the mini-bus out of the car park and to carry on the journey - we got to a normal roundabout and I knew which exit we needed however Caroline didn't as Chris wasn't navigating very well. So I took the right exit but Chris and Caroline went round an extra few times. However we then ended up at the Magic Roundabout.

It's nothing to do with Dougall thats for sure lol. I don't know if you've heard of it before but it has 5 mini roundabouts and because of it's design the middle "roundabout" actually has traffic going Anti-Clockwise rather than clockwise like a normal roundabout - it wasn't too hard to navigate once we knew where we were heading and which route to take across it. All I can say is good luck to anyone who ends up that on their driving test.

Just before the roundabout I had well and truly had enough of Chris being mean to me and putting the phone down on me so I decided that I wanted to go home. I wasn't going to spend all week having Chris be mean to me.

So I have taken to using my Mum's laptop to try and get some of this post done - my poor iphone is having a bit of a strop and can't keep up - it keeps crashing out on me and the battery is about to die for like the third time in about the same number of days - partly because of lack of charging facilities.

I would continue by each day by day but I am a little squiffy on what happened each day so I will have to come back to that at some point.

Does friendship really work???
I think it depends if both sides what the friendship to work. Also on what terms the relationship ends.

It won't be lonely I will sort something - whether I come up for a weekend and only see you for a couple of hours around work - I can go window shop in Mansfield and play on my Mac if its ok to use the connection - I can go take photos or something lol basically entertain myself.

Why can't you go back to uni what happened? Where were you going?

Love - it causes the most happiness and the most pain. One of the talks at Soul Survivor would have been good for you to hear - I know at the moment it might have hurt but in the end I think it would have been right for you to hear - It was broadcasted on God TV on Wednesday - Mum recorded it to Sky + So I will try and get it on a DVD and send it to you - Please try and watch it if you get chance.

I wish i could write something happy like the last post i wrote but to be honest i cant lie to you!

I'd rather than you vented and felt better than pretended to be okay. Caroline tells me off for saying that I am ok when I am really not at all.

Hehe I like the fact that you blogged about Rebecca as I must have been texting you about her! As soon as Mum heard that she was from Mansfield, she thought that you would have some kinda of link to her. Dad just walked past and made some silly comment about the fact that our blog is called the Adventures of Kewey and Smithey!!!! lol

Anyhoo I am going to have my Apple Pie while it's warm

Big hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.s. Do you know where Paula came in the Marathon - if she did run in the end!

Saturday, 16 August 2008

You are a beautiful Princess

Sweetie!!! I am so sorry that I wasn't there for you!!! I had my phone charged up as much as possible - I would have found a power socket on site and sat there to talk to you.

Me and Dad have been hangin out (I'm now sat in the door way with my phone plugged into the wall so that I can write this post!)

You are welcome at my house anytime just let me know you are on the way and I will get you from the train station or bus station. Let me know you are on your way and I'll get the sofa bed ready or you.

If he doesn't want you it's his lost and mr semi-rights gain!

Proverbs 4:23 - Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Ok so so it's not saying put up a 10ft high fence and barbed wired. I need to get back to you with a better explanation of what I mean but my notes are in the car and at home.

I know you are in pain sweetie but I want you to know this. God loves you. He made you an amazing beatiful Princess! (Hence the title)

I'm sorry it's a short post but having slept in a tent for a week I keep seizing up mainly down my legs.

I love you girlie!!! I have so much to tell you about soul survivor but I can't A the moment.

Han =D

dark times

Hey you

How much do i wish i was with you and caring people right now.... I feel lonely and lost! I'm hurting probably more than i ever have both physically and emotionally.

Sarge and me are a definate no more. it all came to a certain close on wednesday and i cant help but feel used. What a great holiday and time we had together for it to be basically thrown right back in my face.

I know that this is probably emotionally charged and might not mean much when i calm down but i really have to vent!

I dont really want to verbally talk about it coz i know i will just blub and not say what i want to say. I'm a wreck!

I still love him and told him exactly what i felt. He said he wasnt interested!

He's not really done anything wrong but now my closest friends here arent happy with him because they all saw us as working well.... then it now looks like he's lead me on apparently.

I cried in front of him and now i feel weak!

I dont think he knows how upset he's left me beacause i tried to stay strong.

Does friendship really work??? I hope so. I feel like he's gonna disappear now. Is that a bad thing?

I dont think i've been this low ever! i've never been in love like this before... to want someone back after everything and all this time?! It hurts that i told him i wanted him back. He was emotionless! I let my barrier down.

I've not got a proper job here anymore, just the pub. No really close friends like you here and possibly the loneliest birthday ever coming up! I just want to get away but i know it's not simple like that. I dont even have my own car to achieve an escape! Money isnt an issue yet as i worked a lot and saved a lot but i should have been going back to uni this year which i cant even do!

Tonight its hit me. i was out at the pub (driving so no alcohol involved in this) and something one of my friends said has just completely set me off. she was on about her daughter getting over her ex. It hit me that over a year on i've not moved on at all! even miu was probably me trying to trick myself and then i realised it wasnt right. Why do i love sarge to the point of making myself feel like this? I have no idea but it's ripping me to shreds! I havent told anyone in the family yet because i know how certain people will feel and i dont think it's fair on them. especially as they covered expences of the holiday!

I wish i could write something happy like the last post i wrote but to be honest i cant lie to you! i cant pretend to be happy for the sake of saying what i want you to hear because that would make me a liar! I wish i could be all positive and happy and bubbly but i feel negative, sad and popped! See if he had done something wrong i would actually probably feel better because there would be a reason but there is no reason and i cant fathom it!

Please please dont worry about me because I am using my acting skills here and no1 thinks different so i got some success in that at least!
As i said before this is probably too emotionally charged and very likely doesnt mean much but sometime i just gotta get stuff out and this is easier than talking... talking sometimes makes it harder because i cant go back and read it to answer my questions.

I've rambled on and i'm exhausted now so i'm gonna put my very sore and swollen ankle up and watch the olympics, Local girl rebecca adlington is set to make me smile when she wins a medal for her swim and today looks good for medals so i can lose myself in sport for now and just hope i can try to unravel this stupid mess in my head.

Love ya. and miss you more than any letters could spell out.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Kewey out.x

Sunday, 10 August 2008

GOODNESS! 3weeks!

Hello you!

3 weeks is far too long... sorry!

Well for the record, you dont have bad BO or anythin.... i just had a busy last week followed by a no signal holiday!

I'm back from Cornwall now which i had v mixed feelings about... I loved being away and sarge was exceptionally good company which i found strange as theres still nothing going on between us!

Day 1 was strange. we set off from stoke on trent at 5am and didnt arrive at the place until 1pm..... there was a v v nasty accident which left us stopped on the motorway... it took us about 7 hours if you dont count the services stops. Bex n si set off an hour after us and it took them 11 hours to get there. Sarge and I got there before mum n dad (and before we could book in) so we got the map out and looked for the nearest beach! Praa Sands was about 10mins from where we were staying so we went and had fish n chips there. It was sooooooo hot and i got a slight tan just driving down... We met mum n dad at 3 back at the holiday place. Scott and I reserved our room and unpacked before going to check out the swimming pool.

After the first day we didnt get too much sunshine... i think it was 5 days in total of sunshine. It was still hot though and we only had one day of cold despite the rain which filled every other day lol.

I'm not going to bore you with the details of the whole 2 weeks but i think we all really really enjoyed it. I wish i was still there to be honest. I felt different to how i feel when i'm here and just a lot more free!

Highlights were: RNAS Culdrose air day, Lands End air day, days on the beach, star gazing with scott (which was so so so beautiful)! Newquay Rip Curl Board Masters. Radio one live from Newquay (scott and i didnt actually get to go into the radio one bit but we did see it from the road and then went and listened to it on the beach).

Anyways, you'll have to fill me in on your S.S trip when you get back

Muchly love.


Friday, 8 August 2008

I jump up and down and say I agree!!!!

Read this post please

It's about the film Tropic Thunder but its also about Special Needs.

Wednesday, 6 August 2008

Smithey sized car

How is this for a car it runs on the engine of a 50 cc moped and its about 50 inches long by 41 wide! It's that light you could wheel it into work and park it in the corner! 

It was on Top Gear: The Best of..... They got Jeremy Clarkson to drive it - yes they got the tallest of the presenters to drive the smallest car!!!! 

At one point Jeremy Clarkson was at a set of traffic lights outside BBC Television Centre and Dermot Murnaghan ran up behind him and grabbed the handle on the back door and turned the car round with Clarkson in it!!!!! 

I thought you'd appreciate this as it's kinda random. 

How you doing?

M and e equals ME!


Did you know it's been nearly three weeks since we spoke and I'm beginning to think I should see a doctor maybe I have like super bad BO or something lol.

So in the last three weeks we had the river festival, Owen and Sam's Baptism, Issie's dedication and the Hope React funday.

I have also had tonsilitis and tripped over the back of the minibus giving me bruises that looked like Chris was beating me up. Which he most definately isn't!

It was Chris's birthday yesterday and we went out for tea.

I have to go now as it's half 12 but please reply i've missed you.

Han :D